beatrice

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She makes animal sounds all the time. The cutest is her elephant, as it’s accompanied by arm motions trying to be a trunk.

She says only a few distinct words. Other than Mama, Dada, and Papa, baby was her first. She loves babies.

She learned Pat-a-cake from an auntie today. I had no idea they’d been doing it, but recognized it immediately from her sing-song attempts and chubby hands clapping and “rolling”.

She was home with a sitter last night (an auntie–how blessed am I!), and when she woke this morning and saw me sleeping next to her, the exuberance and joy in her “Mama!” was just amazing.

I love this spunky little sweetheart!

Christmas thoughts

Our tree is so pretty. It was also so very much fun to decorate it this year, which makes its beauty all the more enjoyable. The kids pause on their way through the room to admire it from afar, or perhaps run over just to make sure their favorite ornament is still in that special spot. Our tree night was filled with dancing and laughing and Christmas music in the background — and free from frustration or dashed hopes or any of the other things that can so often accompany traditions.


tree night photos here.

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Christmas isn’t about getting presents. We all want our kids to know it’s so much more than that. No one’s happy when suddenly their children turn into greedy monsters the day after Thanksgiving. But this year, I’ve been challenged by the idea that Christmas isn’t about giving, either. At least, not presents. I needed that little reminder from the Holy Spirit because I love this excuse to give gifts to my kids, my family, my friends—so much fun! But I can get uptight, too, about choosing the perfect gift. So maybe my kids need to lift their eyes from the getting, but I need to lift my eyes from the giving sometimes. I need to remember that Jesus is all that matters. (And if I’m going to get caught up in giving, give love.)

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We are dancing loosely through these days of December. We fit in chores here and there, quickly pull out a page of math, surreptitiously fit in a reading lesson while doing Christmas crafts. But we also linger in PJs a little longer. Bake cookies. Visit friends.

Saturday, after being out late at the CFA Christmas concert, I declared a Christmas holiday. We ate rice pudding (a rare treat these days), wore our pajamas, and watched The Nutcracker from under afghans. Nana (my mom) came to join us. It was the slow family day you dream of. What a blessing.


boys getting ready to decorate the first rum logs of the season!

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As I add greenery here and a candle there, and in general just go all out with making the house pretty and cozy, I am more aware than ever of my ability to quickly slip into Sounding Gong and Clanging Cymbal mode: warm, cozy home without a warm, cozy Mama. Good works without love behind them is always a rather ludicrous idea, but it becomes only more so when my efforts at “warmth” are so concerted. If I have cookies baked for the neighbors but have snapped at my husband, what have I gained? If every window is lit and the garlands carefully hung but I banished my kids in frustration, what have I gained? I remind myself of this as I plan each day and carefully weigh each moment’s decisions. Better to have a little less “cozy” and little more love, I’d say. A wise woman builds her home—and her home is people.


favorite Christmas decor from Germany

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We have a surprise guest this Christmas. In case you didn’t get the message via FaceBook, here it is:

(Guess that last post will come in handy!)

December!

On the 1st, we bundled up to brave the bitter cold in pursuit of a tree. While we waited for Daddy, I took photos of the kids in our field. They love being outside! …at least, so far. I’ll let you know how we’re doing in February!

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We had hopes of getting our tree DONE! that same evening, but nope. We had an issue with not enough lights, and NO local stores selling the type we’re looking for. Amazon to the rescue! So, tomorrow evening will be Tree Night.

In spite of our tree disappointment, we all enjoyed candles and cupcakes and the start of Advent celebrations.

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november 23

We had a really, really nice day together. All nine of us, and the multiplied families we represent.

We played games, visited, ate food:








We cooked dinner while watching games of football being played in the yard:

Our table was stretched as long as it would reach, and then two more tables beside were set. Our house was filled:



And we ate:






And that was far from the end. We played ping pong, pool, foosball, and watched football:


Then there was a mini-birthday moment for Josiah, followed by lots of musical performances. The kids were adorable and talented!






Nine of us:

november 21

The boys are obsessed with Monopoly.

This week has been Thanksgiving vacation, because I said so. Jameson was thrilled when I told him so on Monday morning, and ran off singing, “I don’t have to do any Ma-ath!” Of course, he then proceeded to set out Monopoly, and has been adding and subtracting ever since. Don’t tell him how much ma-ath he’s doing, okay?

Yes, three mornings in a row. Extending long into the day, when Mama allows. (And a “new” corner, after I went on a little rearranging spree last night.)

Two days of just trying to get things crossed off has resulted in… well, not much. Ha! But regardless of how much gets “done”, there is always living that happens. I think I’m really starting to learn and appreciate that fact. Of course, waking up to a house in a cloud really helps one to just focus on the things (and lives) right here. I think I could use a few more cloud-wrapped days!

Our little house on a hill is wrapped in cloud this morning.

I rearranged lamps last night. And bookshelves. Bringing “cozy” into our home is one of my favorite things, and the highlight of the colder, darker months. Summer living happens outside, and the house becomes nothing more than the refueling station. But now, in these short days and long nights, fireplaces and chairs with afghans and books readily at hand — those things shine. Of course, those things are only tools: What’s really happening is an invitation to come, be together, pause, laugh, talk, rest.

The sun, trying its best.

We are talking about thankfulness lately. (Of course.) Thankfulness is enjoying quite the rise in popularity, as t-shirts and throw pillows and cross-stitched wall hangings remind us to love friends, be thankful for friends, count our blessings, and generally be positive about life. This all reminds me of something I read several years ago: The thing about thankfulness is that it inherently requires a recipient. When the pillow encourages you to “be thankful for family and friends”, who is it you’re thanking?

I want my children to not just see me being positive about the good things in life, but to hear me thanking God for His many blessings. My thank yous need to be addressed to the Giver, not some black hole of positivism.

This song is a favorite, and I’ve been appreciating the reminder to be vocal with praise and thanks.

november 18

I fell in love with this photo tonight: William, his imagination completely captured by Han Solo’s adventures. (Is that even how you spell that name?)

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Friday morning, I slipped in an early walk. Those amazing morning skies frustrate me, because there’s no way for me to ever do them justice in photos. Breathtaking!

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Also on Friday, my sister and brother-in-law came for the evening. This sister is due to have a baby any day, and I am beyond excited. At any moment, my phone could ring, and I’ll drop everything and go to be with her.

Lucky me: I have another sister whose due date is also coming up! Precious babies, momentous and life-changing moments.

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Saturday was shopping. All. Day. Long. I love it! Ryan watched the boys so I could join my mom and sister for a big Christmas shopping trip. We have so much fun and get so much done.

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Today, we dedicated Beatrice at church. What a sober and exciting opportunity: to look at her future and declare that we will give ourselves to see her know and love Jesus. Lots of other babies were dedicated, too, between the two CFC locations. We are incredibly blessed to be surrounded by peers who have the same passion and determination for their families. God is truly so, so good to us.

Spontaneously, all of my north-country-living family came for the afternoon. We all just relaxed and soaked in the peace of a few hours all together.

The best part may be the plethora of little people running around, making everything more fun and special simply by being here. And to think: we’re adding two more cousins this month!

Claire, in the background, being adorable as always.